'Cause you said, said he was the one
Baby yes you said, said you were in love
Danica
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*Morning Star* - Gin, Brandy, Amaretto, White Wine, Orange Juice, Lime Juice, Float Rum.
She's just someone who has wasted half her lifetime away...
Monday, August 11, 2008, 8/11/2008 10:58:00 AM
I'm leaving it all behind.Goodbye past.
Hello new start...
http://a-lastserenade.livejournal.com/
Fuck this shit...
Sunday, August 10, 2008, 8/10/2008 05:35:00 PM
Story telling:-I know... ...
She has jumped into that deep deep well at her own cost
and now she is paying the price trying so hard to climb out of it
but there's just no way she can get out of that pool of crap.
I guess... ...
The best thing she can do is to walk away from it to end such uncessary misery.
She's hurting inside, I know.
She doesn't want the story the end this way and I know it too...
But at the end of the day,
there is nothing that can help her feel better other then leave the situation- I hope...
I understand... ...
That she wants this bad and she salvages this.
But the other side of the story is different.
His perception of life and the things happening in the surrounding is different.
She is angry.
With herself.
And with him
She feels that things are never going her way, ever once
And she realises that life's screwed up.
She feels used...
That everything only sparked because of 'the Wants' and 'the Needs'
She realised that self centered character.
She strongly sense the selfishness.
But I guess... ...
He is not completely to be blamed
She face much more obstacles and life experiences
while...
He basically recieved showers of love his whole life by his kins
She wants to make things simple
and
She just wanna make things right.
She tried having him to understand..
But he cant get it right as he refused to listen with his stubborn character.
His head and his ears are blocked and nothing goes in...
So what if she loves him?
So what if he knows?
At the end of the day, she's left with no choice but to turn her back against him.
Unless he wakes up one fine day, there will never be a happy ever after for the male and the female...
The morale of the story is : - "half a heart will just not do, now it's all up to you" - Mikaila
Cause everything's gonna be alright...
Tuesday, August 5, 2008, 8/05/2008 09:16:00 AM
I feel I want to back out of everything.I'm starting to feel that kinda pressure which I'm uncomfortable in.
I should probably just leave myself out.
Take it or leave it... I don't wish to fight myself anymore... It's getting tiring and I can feel the pain inside...
I'm out.
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Monday, August 4, 2008, 8/04/2008 01:27:00 AM
hello my fatty arse, you are the craziest person I have ever met and you almost killed me today. But I think... like that was totally cool man! lol =PI cant wait for pammy's birthday celeberation!!!!!! =D
Good nights and sweet dreams of me peoples! (:
Accidently in love
Sunday, August 3, 2008, 8/03/2008 06:38:00 PM
Woohoo! late night bowling last night.!I am so slacking at home....
OMG I can't believe it... =\
Went to pick mr seah up at pasir ris yesterday...
Thank you for accompanying me even after you're like so tired booking out of tekong.
Headed out to Jalan Kayu..
omg! he lost 8kg! haha K luh ... looks more tonned now.
hahaha and seems like he grew a little more matured from the last time I saw him. =P
Not saying he isn't but yea... more matured. =P
But oh wells.. some things never change. Caught up a little.. chatted..
Sent him home to take his bath...
Jioed that siao eh...
Went to pick up that idiot and three of us headed down to bowl at Hougang bowl.
My long lost and missed training ground. Haha.
Tried changing my new timing to something more comfortable...
I guess it is more comfortable and it has more speed.
Which is a good thing right.. lol
After three games.... it was like....... 130am already....
Went to some 24 hour coffee shop to drink and that idiot ate his noodles. haha
HAIYA!
Should have taken peekchures.
Wah when I drove home. I was half asleep. I think almost killed myself three times while driving home. Cannot drive auto car arh. kao bei.
Ponned class on Thursday... Went out with Samm, Wani and Daryl.
Haha... Seoul Garden Buffet .
We were wacking desserts more than the food luh.
After that........... went to watch league.. and yea.. here are the pictures of the happening day. lol
Haha my bimbs is so cute! =P
Crazy bitch. haha
Them playing word puzzle
KAo bei luh
yummy yummy food? =D
A sneak shot of them making dessert for everyone!
Daryl was talking of some coffin joke and that was the results...
OMG. Is that a creature or is that a human
haha awww.
Asshole
Samm acting cute
myself =D
Mr pinkie ong
My bimbs! =] 
Lols
Smile =]
Erms?
My sexay!
Four of us =]]]Thats it!
Saturday, August 2, 2008, 8/02/2008 07:31:00 PM
Yay. I am going night bowling later. so coolAt least someone is nice enough to go bowling with me even after a tired week in tekong.
I am going MILO on my own this year.... first and hopefully not the last time...
I feel like giving it up...
Feel like letting it go...
I feel like whatever I do is always and never enough to make any one happy.
Maybe it isn't enough or it isn't good enough.
I should have just stick to having nothing.
I am sad but I dont know the reason why....
No.. I am telling myself that I dont know the reason why but I do.
Because I am not satisfied with any and everything that is happening in my life.
Well at least...congrats for winning the throphy. I'm really happy for you.
I guess im just someone seeking for perfection subconsciouslly all the time.. which in turn it back fires because ... nothing is perfect.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008, 7/30/2008 09:36:00 PM
Just when I thought my eyes has stopped drying up..... it just did. -_-I'm very hungry..... but there's no food at home....
At the same time.... I don't wana buy the food downstairs because...
1. it sucks...
2. I'm lazy
3. save money
So what do i do when all of the above factors are taken into account?
--> Starve.
Yes thats right...
OMGosh.. I'm crapping .... friggin hungry.... I totally can't can't can't take it anymore.
...
Whatever it is.....
It is confirmed that I will go for MILO. yays
The only issue is.... will be going alone...
Sounds fine but someone told me I should go up with somebody so that I will not be too lost up there....
Shopping there alone sounds like a really great idea luh.
The only thing I am worried about actually is................. I will be alone in the hotel room and I think i will freak out luh.
Sadded. ):
I cant wait for my Storm Shift to arrive... Till then, I think my collection will be completed.
Urms...
1. Spit Fire
2. Street Rod
3. My Pinkae WD! (:
4. Dimmension
5. Shift!
I think it will be a temporary "completed" collection only for now.. i mean soon.
Anyways again... I saw Issac in Vivo today! Like I became the most excited female on earth for a moment... Well, 1- he became cutier... 2- he's still as hilarious.... with his look... 3- he's still with Angel! haha woah... think they should walk down the ile together soon man. haha
And then and then and then......
I need to go back to my stupid proposals which I am sooooo UNWILLING TO DO.
Good bye.
Damn it
Tuesday, July 29, 2008, 7/29/2008 11:25:00 PM
I think I am falling sick.I am feeling cold for who knows what reasons.
I'm starting to cough..
Tomorrow's a packed packed day.
Breakfast appt
Lunch appt.
Evening... outing (:
Giddy spells.....
Cramps.....
So not happening at all...
My knee is falling apart on me ..and so is my back.... probably my Lats is injured and my C1 to C5 area... I need a doctor!
And my eye still isn't okay... and it has been.... almost 2 months already. I think I need a specialist. haha
I did not say exactly what I wanted to say...
And here's what I wanted to say....
I think I've fallen into it and I am somehow... I don't know how to react to it or what to do...
And.. I don't know if it is a good or if it is a bad thing.
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7/29/2008 11:50:00 AM
I'm flowing I'm flowing I'm flowing and I cannot take it.I'm bored I'm bored I'm bored but I'm suppose to be doing work.
I'm tired I'm tired I'm tired but my eyes are still wide open.
I'm lame I'm lame I'm lame and that's just the way Danica is.
Stay over at Chua CB's place in CCK!
7/29/2008 11:40:00 AM
I found this in gay's LiveJournal.
And that was like a month and 19 days ago.!
The first two pics are my sexy legs
The third and fourth pics are pam's macho legs
And the last two are phy's flabby de kah legs. ;)
Idiotic! haha
I miss my clique! =X
Nothing Really Matters
7/29/2008 12:06:00 AM
Well.. It's been long...Don't ask me why I'm blogging again.
I just felt like it.. This time round ... at least.
Anyways..
I feel like playing with a netball now.... not spinning it... but throwing it....
Replacing people's heads with my power shots.
Roll off the past weekend was crap...
Not the event, not the equipments, not the people nor the lanes..
Just myself.
I was angry with myself that I don't have confidence with what I was doing.
Boss pulled me one side....
Asked me what was wrong.
I gave the exact same reason I just mentioned.
Pop one stick of lights to me and I was shaking while lighting the stick up.
Dont ask me why...
Probably that same panic attack which happened two years back...
And yea.. back to the topic..
The first thing boss said was.. you are crazy luh. you are bowling fine but why are you still crying.
And I gave the same reason again...
Then he said. haiya.. dont emo luh.. smile one for me..
and i gave that.. -_- face.
And he starts talking cock to me...
Then i flicked the ciggie wanting to return to my game..
But it was like... only half finished...
And boss went: you flick my cigarette like that arh. $ 2.00 lah.. wah lao..
And i smile at him and ran back into the alley.
What the hell is wrong with me.
I think I;m crazy and emotionally unstable..
Right after I went back in... I bowled aa 18.
Oh wells.
So what if I got into the team. I ain't happy because I know I didnt do my best.
And that I was giving myself excuses that the new drilling was giving me problems... well it was.... kinda.
I guess I should leave. I have tonnes of work to do... even when I'm done with FYP. Not like others who are so much less busy.
I get it now.. You kept quiet when i mentioned about it because it DID happen and you are guilty of it. now I am pissed. thank you very much.
Friday, January 11, 2008, 1/11/2008 09:53:00 PM
well. happy late new year to alland a not so good happy new year to me.....
Basically, life... suck.
I just failed my final theory after passing my first.
Damn I shouldnt have even let my final theory cert expire for this past two years.
Imagine... this is how long I have not driven a vehicle. and now I fail it!???
Plain dumbness.
I may be going to kuantan or langkawi right after CNY.
Right now I think I am really sick and tired of bowling.
Less than one more year and I am done with it......
Well... Even though it is kinda wasted with the fact that I have came this far and now I am just giving it up so soon. But yeap. I guess.... baby is right. career and anything else is more important rather than spending money on your passing and not getting money from it.
I am not like the rich and I cannot afford like others do no matter how much I am being sponsored with equipments.
Well... suppose to head down to zouk to meet phy and all sighz.. I just feel like as if I'm a fucking loner bird stuck in its stupid cage.
I just don't understand why he doesnt allow me to do the things that he can do.
he's a selfish person.
stingy person
whatever nots... and seriously, I don't understand till this day... why I still cant put myself to leave him.
Anyways... these are just things which will cause my body heart and mind to exhaust. So why bother brood over mini minor issues like these. make sense at all?
But well... I just feel that I need a life... I need my life.. I NEED A CAR! but... first.... I have to pass my stupid driving test. and I am really hating the idea of going on teck whye routes again.
Whatever it is... FYP topics and supervisors are all confirmed now and it's time to get down to solid research man. Darn I'm fried....
I completely have no idea how much more load of work I have to handle all by myself... When you want to ask for help, the help does not come to meet your expectations and the quality of efficiency does not meet 90% a time. So tell me how isi't even possible at all to be relying on others to be helping you out with even anything?
Alright enougth of my nonsense.. back to research =\
Till later.
Saturday, December 8, 2007, 12/08/2007 09:54:00 PM
1st day of national selections ....spirits are low man.
bowled a stupid 14 average...
only a high game of 204.
Fucked up man
Well, as for tomorrow, It is a make it or break it situation.
If I were to go to zouk out to meet baby tonight. then I guess that's where my bowling career will end. Or maybe... its the other way round.... going zoukout tonight will help me bowl better tomorrow...
Oh well...
Well see.
If I'm destinied to go in I will.... But seems not like it...
Pretty sad that I'm feeling that I'm wasting everyone's time and money....
I'm just there because people asked me to.....
Because they see the potential in me...
So what I if I have the natural timing and the psychic of a bowler....
Whats the used when the passion is gone.....
I feel hopeless and the only thing I can wish for now to to go to zoukout and get a couple of drinks. =\
Whatever it is, tomorrow is my favourite kind of oiling... well, at least sort of.... fate will decide tonight wether I will go to zouk out or I will bowl a 200 average tomorrow.
Till then.....
I'm gone.